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My postpartum body | Part 1

July 15, 2016

I have such a clatter of emotions surrounding this post.

Embarrassment that people will see these dire photos of me. Complete disgust at myself for believing that I am in any way out of shape to begin with.  Then I move swiftly to feeling empowered that my body has housed three human beings and looks the way it does after only ten weeks since popping out the last one. And finally (you still here?) I question continually why am I putting this sh** out into the world in the first place?

I have struggled girls.

Emotionally had to check myself a hundred times.

Truth be told I think it is so important that you know I am not perfect.

To be fair I reckon most of my readers know I’m not portraying perfection on here, I try to be as honest as possible about life, kids and health. Just in case I have gone off kilter especially now that I have tidied up my instagram to make the pictures a little more slick, then know here and now that my life is so so so SO bloody good. But it is not perfect and neither is my body.

My body shape changed so it could house a baby

(a BABY! It never ceases to blow my mind what a miracle that is ) and now I am left with the belly that my seven year old likes to poke  and comment ” It’s still wobbly Mummy”, and the boobs which hit the floor when they aren’t filled with milk.

But so have other women’s bodies for centuries!! There is nothing new about my body changes in the grander scheme of things.

I was always fascinated by my Mum’s shapely body growing up but more than anything I was intrigued at how she never complained about her body EVER in my presence.

THAT is what I want to be like and sadly I am still not there yet, mentally.

I have great friends like Sarah and Hollie who don’t let me talk myself down and make me accept compliments they give me.

My original intentions for this post were to give you a week by week update of my body.

The weeks at the beginning where I was doing nothing activity wise but my body was still changing.

You know what though?

Those photos destroyed me every Sunday morning.

They made me sad for about two days because the changes were very little and I was SO critical of myself. Absorbed with disappoint that I was still so far away from fitting any of my clothes.

After a conversation with a friend who had her baby three days after me,

I made the decision to permanently delete the snaps from weeks 2,3,4 and 5 and to only take a photo when I felt ready.

And that is what you’re seeing. It took me over two months to feel ok with a transformation pic.

Two months of eating a ton of good healthy whole food meals to sustain my milk supply and to feed my muscles. Two months of walking, now running and weight training. Nothing manic, but aiming for consistency.

I am not someone who pings back into their jeans the week after birth. I never have been.

And I’m not a breastfeeding Mother who loses her three stone of baby weight just because she breastfeeds. I enjoy my grub too much AND I want a proper butt and muscular arms so I will always be keeping the strong over riding skinny in my world.

So what is the point of this body related (ugh) rant?

Hopefully to let you see that even a fitness idiot like me needs to have patience, to give it time and appreciate their own bad ass efforts in order to see results after having a baby.IMG_8659

 

22 Comments

  • Reply Yvette Henning July 15, 2016 at 5:06 pm

    Go you!! Totally awsome. God made us to carry these blessed wee people!! Very blessed are we as women x

    • Reply Aly July 16, 2016 at 9:51 am

      Thank you Yvette!! I really appreciate you taking the time to read this and i agree, what a blessing to have our babies. i could cry every time I look at Abraham, i feel so happy to have grown and got him here. Happy Saturday and thanks again xx

  • Reply Holly July 15, 2016 at 5:58 pm

    I really appreciate you posting this as I am 6 weeks post partum and feel awful about my body expecting it to just bounce back to pregnancy by now. As a follower of you I thought you are bound to be back to ‘normal’ by now and why do I still have the baby tummy! (Its all worth it though!!)

    • Reply Aly July 16, 2016 at 9:56 am

      Holly then i am even more glad i posted this! as I trained so much with the third trimester of this pregnancy my muscles have some memory but no no I am now almost back in my pre baby jeans at eleven weeks today but they don’t zip and Ibhave a hair bobble on the button. s be encouraged!! And like i said to a few other people, isn’t it nice that nothing good in life comes for free!? Or at least that’s what we’ll tell ourselves. Did you have a boy or a girl? CONGRATULATIONS! And thanks again x

  • Reply Grainne July 15, 2016 at 8:24 pm

    You should love your body…. Look what it did for you, nurtured, grew and presented you with 3 amazing children… It simply cannot be wrong… What’s not to love??

    • Reply Aly July 16, 2016 at 9:58 am

      I do I do !! I am getting better at accepting the fact that I am still a long way away from fitting my clothes but look what i have- three beauties! Are you guys by any chance members at Dl? i thought I saw your three boys there this week? xx

  • Reply Becca July 15, 2016 at 8:44 pm

    Aly- you’re beautiful!! How brave to post such a personal post and photos.

    • Reply Aly July 16, 2016 at 10:00 am

      Thanks Becca!!And thank you for taking the time to read my post. Maybe catch you next week- I am loving following your work journey- inspirational x

  • Reply Rachel. July 15, 2016 at 9:01 pm

    I really admire your honesty. We are all so hard on ourselves about our physical appearance but the most important lesson we can teach our kids is to love and respect themselves, and I guess the only way we can do this is to lead by example. I struggle everyday to accept myself and not feel like a lesser person for not being a size zero. Your kids are very lucky to have such a strong & honest mother.

    • Reply Aly July 16, 2016 at 10:04 am

      Rachel thank you!I appreciate you taking the time to read and to comment. You’re right, we are so hard on ourselves and it;s horrible. A constant journey to change my state of mind. I hope you take some encouragement from the fact that no matter of your size those babas wouldn’t want ANYONE else to be at the centre of their world. I say this as a reminder to myself also! Thanks again for your time x

  • Reply missamberm July 15, 2016 at 9:35 pm

    Thank-you for this.

    • Reply Aly July 16, 2016 at 10:08 am

      Thank YOU for reading. Just had a op over last your blog too. Have you taken a break from posting? Your voice is so evident and lovely in the posts i read but i see they are from 2014? Happy Saturday!

      • Reply missamberm October 25, 2016 at 10:21 am

        It’s true, I’ve had a blogging hiatus, but I’m thinking now might be the time to get back on it!

  • Reply Sharon July 15, 2016 at 10:37 pm

    Wow. As always refreshingly honest, open & upfront. Society has us ‘tuned’ a certain way; to be snapped back into size 8 upon leaving the delivery suite, which is unrealistic & unnecessary. Women should embrace this change in our body, accept what can never be undone and love how strong we must be to carry babies !!
    As a whole we should build each other up not slay each other for having baby pouches/droopy boobs/saggy arses (whether we carried a baby or not) … I’m 8 years PP and still trying to ‘better’ my body. Not to be ripped or toned or slender (although all of these would be nice) but to be strong, healthy and happy and therefore able to be the best mum I can be!
    Well done for sharing Aly. Legend status remains intact.
    All the love. S xx

    • Reply Aly July 16, 2016 at 10:09 am

      Strong healthy and happy- YES!! Thank you for your words my dear and forever being a support…and for the gym and progress pics! We keep each other accountable but also keep each other’s perspective in tact. Love that ! xxxx

  • Reply Sarah Lagen July 16, 2016 at 1:38 pm

    You are an amazing women for sharing this!! You look so healthy, strong and happy!! I’m not a Mom yet, but I love finding other women that are real about their birthing experience and just sharing their experience. You look amazing! 🙂

  • Reply creative pixie July 16, 2016 at 7:42 pm

    You look lovely. I was just telling my 5year old daughter how she was once a little dot in my tummy and how the body is amazing to grow babies.

    • Reply Aly July 26, 2016 at 1:23 am

      Hi! I have had so many messages since posting this that it has taken me a while to respond. Thank you for your lovely comment! A little dot is so right. As I sit here in JFK with Abe who was literally a tiny dot in my tummy last sepember when i was over for a friends wedding, and it blows my mind!!Thank you for your comment and for following along with me! Hope you’re keeping well x

  • Reply Fiona July 16, 2016 at 9:41 pm

    Refreshing Aly. I wish I had seen something like this when I was PP. I know what our bodies have done is amazing, but sometimes when you’re used to training and seeing the results in your body, the new PP you can be hard to accept. I wish I’d managed my own expectations a bit better in respect of giving myself sufficient time to get back to “me”. Well done and congratulations on the birth of your son.

    • Reply Aly July 26, 2016 at 1:26 am

      Fiona so sorry fr the delay and many many thanks for reading and commenting. It is quite the journey eh? Even since I wrote this and during my trip here to niece I have had to check myself as it really is such a SLOW “recovery” back to the body we have prior to babies. When i was running along the hudson and doing workouts I felt emotional looking at Abe in the buggy and so proud of my body! You should be too… we are just so hard o ourselves. Here’s to honesty and the bellies that housed our beautiful babies for nine months xx

  • Reply Gra - Laugh or Cry July 17, 2016 at 8:22 am

    This was the perfect time for me to read this. I’m 6 weeks since having my little man and I’m struggling big time to stop eating every time he feeds. After the initial weight came off I’ve found myself in a bit of a rut. Onwards and upwards after reading this

    • Reply Aly July 26, 2016 at 1:29 am

      And now you’re almost eight weeks postpartum! Sorry for the delay, I have been inundated with beautiful messages so getting slow with my replies. I am SO thrilled that my post reached you in some small way. We are SO hard on ourselves which i hate and wish i could change in myself and all of us. It astounds me how slow the process is back to pre baby, but hard work pays off, right? Here’s to being proud of our beautiful strong and capable bodies! Thanks so much for your comment and for reading and congrats on bubs! x

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